Recently, I had a much enjoyed holiday with friends for 3 days. We went to Phillip Island and waited for the cute little penguins to arrive. At around 7pm, small flocks of penguins swam up the water and started walking towards us. After swimming all day in the freezing ocean water, they’re yet to return to their niche. Three days of my holiday also meant three days of massive headache. I took paracetamol on the last night of our stay. Everything seems normal.
The week after, I was back at work feeling good and refreshed. That week went so quickly and the next thing I knew, it was already Friday. On that Friday afternoon, I was bouncy and happy anxiously waiting for the clock to strike 5PM. While typing on my computer, I heard a loud noise on my right ear like a siren. It was painful and lasted for a few minutes. When I got home that day, headache struck me again. I had my dinner, watched tv and slept. The following day, I was good as new…well that’s what I thought.
Saturday morning, it was very unsual for me to wake up at 6AM and not go back to sleep. But on that day, I stayed awake. At 7am, I was texting my friends asking them to bring their kids to YMCA so we could go for a swim. They didn’t come so I went by myself. I didn’t go swimming though. I went up to the gym, ran on the treadmill as usual, did a bit of rowing and boxed. Whew! My heart was racing. I headed home. It was lunch time. I had lunch with my friend and her family in a steakhouse. It was really good. While waiting for my food, I suddenly felt a tinge in my left eye. I thought it was irritated and that I was about to have sore eyes. I ignored it for a while and finished my lunch. We walked around the shopping centre, bought some stuff and went Mcdonalds to have coffee. The sensation was killing me. It was getting uncomfortable and I knew it was something I’ve never felt before. Night time came and we decided to have dinner at my place. Around 7pm, my right cheek is no longer moving, my right eye can blink no more and half of my lips is numb. Did I mention that my friends at that time were all nurses? There were four of ’em. Right there and then, they knew what was happening. At 8PM, my bf came home and they all agreed it was something terrible… Sunday morning, I was diagnosed with Bells Palsy.
According to Wikipedia, it is “a form of facial paralysis resulting from a dysfunction of the cranial nerve VII (the facial nerve) that results in the inability to control facial muscles on the affected side.” The doctor said it will be temporary and in time it will go back to its normal form. In time. We’re not sure when, but in time. I am hoping it will be soon. I was reading some articles about BP. They said it was a form of knowing who your friends really are. At the moment, I am blessed to see who my friends are and thankful for those who are praying for me. This is God’s plan. He has a purpose for everything. Like what I read on the internet, even though I do not understand God’s wisdom, I am not letting go of my trust in Him. This must have a purpose. I just need to find out his purpose and listen to His message. Today, it’s my fourth day of having BP. I am still thankful that it only paralysed a part of my face, not the whole body. I can function well. I can eat and drink, although a bit messy, I still can. Others have no legs, but I can still walk. Others can’t speak, I still can. Others cannot see, I still can. Others worry, I still can pray. After this, I will be stronger. My faith will be better than before. My trust in the Lord will never fade. I am His child. My soul and body is His. My life is my offering. Life is so beautiful to fret. Smile, laugh your heart out, appreciate, respect, love and pray…while you still can.
“I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills his purpose for me. He sends from heaven and saves me, rebuking those hotly pursue me; God sends His love and faithfulness.” – Psalm 57 I can’t wait to smile again like the smile I have on my profile photo. Soon, I will be able to do it again. Soon. In His time.